Life usually does not go the way you want it to go. I remember telling one friend about the future I want, during when I’m still willing and able to dream BIG. I want to be the best, I could, and how I wish I would. But it turns out that I’m just an ordinary girl going to an ordinary university and sometimes I can’t help to wonder:” What goes wrong?”
Maybe I’ve lost the passion. Maybe I've stopped believing. Maybe I feel so secure and safe to follow the others that I’ve stopped trying, stop adventuring, stop challenging. When I hear news of friends accomplishing their dreams, I feel ashamed for letting go of mine. I feel like I’m someone who talk big, and do nothing.
Sometimes I really want time to go back. I want to take up the chances I’ve missed, I want to be a better person that I am now. I want to influence people, I want to be someone who is proud of herself. Why can the others achieve what they are after, but I can’t?
Because I stop trying.
And I hope I can really really stop being the ordinary.
I want to be EXTRAORDINARY.
