涂鸦

凌晨12点20分

时间就像调皮的小孩，在你不知不觉中它已悄悄的溜出你握紧的拳。思绪紊乱，删删改改，再瞄一眼，才惊觉生命少了三分钟，好感慨。

大学朋友无意提起这里，回来看看，发现真的已了无生气。就是那么的突然，想随便涂鸦，可是却不懂该从哪里起笔。看回上一篇文稿，没来由的想家，想到黄美珍的歌，当然更想爸爸妈妈哥哥弟弟，温暖的家，我永远的避风港。来了这里，发觉有时候心里再多情绪，也不知道应不应该，可不可以找人倾诉。发生了好多事，只希望船到桥头自然直，还有自己可以慢慢觉悟长大。有时不是想要的都可以得到，不是努力了就有代价，不是搞砸了就可以从新出发。

想太多，有的没的，世界变得更复杂，好想学会放下。但如果人生平平无起，风平浪静，哪有什么好期待？有何精彩？有时压力大得喘不过气来，但是总告诉自己：爸爸妈妈在地球的另一边拼了命的赚钱，为的就是让在异乡的我可以没有牵挂。我一定要独立，要让他们的付出有代价。

19岁，懵懂渐淡的时期，要求更高，梦想更大。我可以做到。

让只有文字的排场，说出心里的话。

Journey

Hello people! Long time no see huh? :) 

Wanted to blog this since last 2 weeks but was always hold  up by something else. So, here it is!



WARNING: This is going to be a very long post.




Here I am now, sitting on a couch in Room 201 in Ross Hall, one of the residence halls of Drake University in Des Moines (Pronounced as Dee Moin, or something like that), Iowa, US. Once in a while this whole thing still seem so surreal to me. Sometimes I wake up and took a few seconds to realize that I am in US instead of in my lovely room in Malaysia. All the farewells are like yesterday, and I just couldn't get used to the fact that I can't talk to my mum face to face everyday.

My last semester in Inti ended 3 weeks before my departure to US. In that 3 weeks, I was busy preparing for this journey. And also, I had my first surprised farewell! Okay wait I don't think I'll have a second one but... this is how my day went.


It was a Friday evening and I just got back from work. My brother went home with me, and he took his shower after me. I immediately felt that something was wrong because normally he would not shower until it is 10p.m.. He showered, and went out!! And I waited for bf to come and fetch me to Sunway Pyramid. When we reached there, I was so hungry but my bf tried doing so many stuffs other than bringing me to eat. And he kept receiving calls and msgs. So I started to become suspicious. There is definitely a conspiracy going on! So I asked him, is my brother here? He kept on avoiding my question and would not allow me to ask more, which confirmed that there was something going on! And then finally, he received a call and FINALLY willing to bring me to eat. He took me to Fullhouse, and I said I don't want to eat there (to test id there is REALLY something going on) and he said cannot, I must eat there LOL. So we went in, and guess what? There's this 1 2 3 4 5 6 people sitting there trying to cover their faces with menus! Lol! Yup, the uninvited guests!

The very first person I want to thank is actually my brother. Not because he is the most organizer who plan this surprise (I'm not sure who is), not because his presents are the best, but because he is the one that has spent his most of his entire life, at least til now, with me. I live with him since I was born, we used to fight when we are little kids, but now we are all grown up and I think both of us appreciate the presence of each other. He and I are only 1  year apart, and that makes us share a lot of common similarities. We talked to each other on basically everything, and he knows WHO I AM. Okay, stop the long winded-ness, and these are the presents he gave me!

A very cute PINK ear muffs! :D 

Oh he actually gave me a pair of heels too, but I don't have a picture of that :P

Yup, not fancy gifts, but something I will need in the future. So thank you bro, if you are reading this, I would love you to know that I miss eating supper and going to watson with you :)

Next up is my dearest boyfriend! :D

Boyfriend :) 

Then my seat-mates for last two years in high school, Jia Ying! :)

Jia Ying :) 

A pair of earrings! So elegant :) I want to thank her for being next to me (physically and also mentally) for quite a long time in my life, and I am so thankful I have her. I always ask her to check my English for me, and I used to borrow a lot of novels from her. Didn't get to sleepover at your house before I come to US! :( We MUST do it next year kay? :D All the best in United Kingdom, and keep in touch!

Next we have the sampat group leader Vivi!

Vivian :) 

A jar of stone- and lego-shaped candy!

The one very important thing I want to thank Vivian is that she always fetch me to our hang outs and gatherings. THANK YOU SO SO MUCH. Next time, like few years more, I will fetch you back! :P

And then the tall girl of our gang!

Yi leng :) 

The bear who is currently on my study desk! 

Thank you for umm.. Celebrating my 13th, 14th, 15th, 16th, 17th, 18th and 19th birthday? LOL just kidding! Thank you for being my roommate in the 3A2 class trip! And thank you for introducing me to English songs! Fall for you!!

Last but not least, my dearest Orange, a.k.a Xue Ying! :D

The mug I am using right now!

Thank you for participating in the 30-hour famine with me, thrice. Thank you for being my faithful listener, and thank you for believing in me and sharing your life stories with  me. All the best in UK too, and ALWAYS whatsapp me, but do get enough rest no matter you are in Malaysia, United States or UK! 

It was an unbelievable night. I was literally the happiest person on earth. Thank you again everyone! 

You all might be wondering why didn't I elaborate on my bf's part. Well cause I'm going to do so now! 

On the 12th of August, my bf came to my house in the evening to fetch me. However, he asked me to blindfold myself when I got into the car. He forced me to! Lol so I did, and he drove me to I-don't-know-where. He drove for so long! Like an hour?? Haha I almost fell asleep. And I ended up in his house! And when I entered the living room...

I stare right into this. Yeap! Candle light dinner :) With th-cooked food!

The chef with the chicken :) And I have to tell you, the food is really really nice! I had salad, chicken with potato, and cheesecake :D

A bit blur but I like the color :) 

Red roses! I love roses but one thing about them is that they wilt quite fast :(

Sweet eh? :P 

When people ask me about my relationship, I am never shy to tell them that I have a bf in Malaysia and we have been together for almost 3 years. I know I have said thank you to you numerous times dear, but I want you to know that every time I say it, I mean it. Please wait for me, I'll be home soon <3 p="p">
The last farewell I had was on 18th August, one day before my departure to the states, in my house. Most of the guests are my family, but some of my friends managed to turn up too!

Happy family :) 

Thanks for those who attended, thanks for the wishes and thanks for the angpau's!

On the 19th of August, my family and I went to the airport at 8 in the morning. My flight was scheduled to depart at 11a.m.. Three out of four of my "bodyguards" came to send me off too!

Protect me!! XD

I didn't really get to say goodbye to them :( Rushing to check in and all. But one thing that I will never forget, one thing that always make me cry is the hug that I got before I start the journey alone. Mum's gentle hug, telling me that everything is going to be okay, dad's strong hug, giving me the courage I need and bf's hug, telling me that he will be waiting for me to go home..

During our orientation, one of the officers said to all new international students: "One thing all of you have in common is that you all have traveled a long journey to reach here. And what I mean is not just the flight, but the emotional and mental journey that you all have undergone."

Yes indeed. From choosing the uni to applying to that uni, doing visa, booking air tickets, preparing and packing. And on top of all is that I won't be seeing my family and friends in Malaysia for almost a year :( 

I miss home, I always do. But in this new place, I meet new people, learn new things, adapt to new culture. And I will still be me. The values I bring with me and my love towards my loved ones will never be lost. The first thing I go home next year is to hug mum and dad and tell them I really, really love them.

Having their love for me and my love for them, I'm pretty much settled down in this small town. Drake is a small school, but the people here is nice, helpful and friendly. My classes had started and life goes on. I share this apartment style hostel with 3 other girls from Malaysia and we walk to class everyday. We are doing well! :)

My journey has started, and I will make the most out of it before I reach  my destiny.

p.s. Always check my Facebook to see pictures and for more recent updates! :)

xoxo,

Shi Yi

Blood test

Woke up in the morning feeling really hungry but couldn't have breakfast! Need to fast because I was going to do a blood test. So I cycled to the clinic near to my house and waited for my turn as dad who was also visiting the doctor had already helped me register.

After a while, I was asked to collect my urine LOL. And I was like "har I just peed" but still went into the toilet and forced a few drops of yellow liquid out :P gross isn't it? Hahahaha. Then I waited again.... And finally it was my turn! I went into the room, chat with the doctor while he prepare the needles and all and then he wrapped the sphygmomanometer (the thing used to measure blood pressure) around my upper arm. Then he inserted the needle into my vein and started sucking out the blood. I dared not look at the syringe OR the doctor, I just swept the other side of the room with my eyes while feeling the numbness in my right hand magnifying. And then, maybe the blood was not coming out, the doctor tightened the wrap around my arm. And then again. OMG I totally lost feeling of the hand haha. And like finally, he had collected enough blood and let me go.

When I went out, dad was there and I was feeling okay, and I was thinking "it was not so bad after all". And then the nurse called me to pay a total of RM164 for the test. I think dad went out at that time when I was paying. Another Chinese nurse came and talked to me, and it was then that I felt really really giddy. REALLY giddy. Things started to revolve, my vision blurred. I knew if I did not sit down immediately, I would definitely faint. So I walked to the nearest chair and sat down. I remember one friend who was in PBSM told me that if you are dizzy you put your head between your knees. I did that but it was not helping at all. I couldn't focus on anythings, my ears were stuffed and I was feeling hot and cold. It was the worst feeling EVER. I really couldn't take it and I asked the Chinese aunty sitting next to me to call the nurse. The nurse took me to lay down and I feel so much better immediately. Never thought that that would happen!!

I don't think I can cycle back in this condition and so I called mum. Went back home I straight away ate one bread and still was feeling giddy and sleepy. I went to sleep for 2 hours and felt better.

My family members kept saying that I don't have enough blood lol. I just want to know the result asap. My dad has thalassemia and I would want to know if I inherited that. If I do, I can't marry a man with this disease too! Just fyi :P

I'm still waiting for my bro to send me the photos in his ipad to upload about yesterday! :(



Till then.


xoxo,
ShiYi

Photos

Was looking back at the photos in my phone and here are some which I think I had not posted here :) Be prepared for photo-spam!

This are the "cue cards" (which are actually parts of a foolscap paper) I used in my first formal presentation in Public Speaking class!

By Ivy Sun. The ugly duckling is looking at you!

Hand arts by bro. The only fitting "bracelet" I ever have! Haha

Lelong lelong! Siapa nak beli basikal?? 4 bikes outside the center! 

Little Wie En helping out! No matter how small you are, you can make a difference :) 

Nicely broke?

NOT AT ALL :( 

Gong Cha and cakes from RT Pastry!! Feel so loved <3 p="p">

Oh so little only ya? Haha that's all for now then! :P

xoxo,

ShiYi

30-Hour Famine 2012

Hello people! I'm back! :D

Just attended the 30-Hour Famine organised by World Vision in Segi College, Subang Jaya. Why Segi? Everyone asked that lol. Because we (Xue Ying and I) were a bit late when registering so not much choices left lo. But to be frank the past 2 years ones were so much better.

Reached Segi at 9a.m., waited quite long only can register.

While waiting for the registration...

And we actually started late :( We started the famine with a pledge, followed by some funny cute dance, then ice breaking activities. They arranged us into 6 groups, which was bad cause we cant choose our own group. I knew non of them there other than Xue Ying! And we were not in the same group :( 

The ice breaking game was a bit lame, it was called "Clap and catch". You shout a person's name, throw the ball, and that person has to clap before catching the ball. That's it. LOL. Then after that, we moved on to Famine Challenge 2, which was always the biggest and longest game in any 30-hour famine. It used to be so fun in HELP, but this time it was a boring and unfair. The committee said they had only 4 members to coordinate, that was why the game was a failure. Well... Was very disappointed in that one. Then, we went into quiz and sketch. To be frank, I was surprised to see the Segi people put in effort for the sketch, and they really come up with the story-line quite fast! Oh just fyi, most of them in the camp are studying Child Education. In my opinion some of them are really meant to study that! You can see that through the way they narrate a story, it is the perfect way of telling bedtime stories haha. And some are really very patient and sweet :) 

One thing that was different was they distributed the cert and took group picture at the first night. Then it was  band time. OMG I tell you it was so noisy I really can't bear it so we went out to have some girls' talk :P 

And this time I became smarter. Last 2 times I couldn't sleep at night because it was so so cold and the floor was hard as rock. This time I brought sleeping  bag + blanket + sweater. LOL I actually felt a bit warm in the middle of the night. Oh and we slept in the Theater Hall. Of course, the walls and floor were covered with soft materials to prevent echo and stuff, so it was not too hard also. I finally managed to sleep! First time in my famine live! Haha

Photos for the first day: 

Welcome to 30-hour famine

3rd time together! :)

3 for 30-hour famine

Best friends...do silly things together!

Karen :) 

Us with our "house"

I forgot her name..

Handmade dirty water. Haha!

OMG I'M DRINKING THE WATER!

There are actually enough food for everyone on earth! 

Save the children!

With the camp leader

There are actually words on the love...

That writes "World Vision"!!

Group photo!

It was quite a small camp, with not more than 50 campers only. On the second day, we cleaned up the rooms we used, filled in the discussion sheet and then we did something with candles. Something like let the fire spread haha. 

After that, we sat in a circle. All of us took turn to tell others what we had realized throughout this camp. And then like finally, we took the bus to go to the stadium! When we reached there, the stadium was already full of people. Humans were everywhere! And our assistant camp leader rushed to the counter to register us. After waiting for quite a while, we finally got to get in! Took some time to settle down, and waited for the concert to begin. 

As usual, there was a lot of performances from local celebrities. I always drift away when they are singing I was just so tired! The performances from local singers were good, but what all of us were waiting for was only one person -- Lee Hom! Haha.. He came out at around 3.40p.m. and the whole stadium heated up. If only you were there to hear the scream! However, he didn't really sang a lot of songs. He told us how he and  World Vision helped the poor children, sang the song <<改变自己>>, countdown with us, then ciao! Ahhhhhh :( Just like past 2 years, V-Soy was nice XD But this year the bread change to Massimo d! Stomach-ache after finishing these 2 :S Rushed to the nearest toilet which was in Tesco and had the bus waiting for me. Sorry!

This year's camp really needs a lot of improvement. If others can do it, I am sure you all can do it too! You have to have the heart to do it then only you can make it a successful and enjoyable one. The committees were not efficient enough, kept on delaying everything and this really made us go crazy! 

But still, both of us hope to join the famine again next year if we can make it! 

Promise :) 

xoxo,

ShiYi

Oh hey! I forgot to post -.-




LOL.



SO! Exams are over :DDD But hor, I am even busier than before exams. Since kakak went back to Indonesia for Puasa + Hari Raya, I have officially become the "housemistress" in my house. Woke up every day to do house chores: Wash, hang, keep and fold the clothes, help mum cook lunch and dinner, tidy the yard...... Really, before-exam time was SO MUCH relaxing then now!

Mum's great plan for me:
6.00a.m: Wake up, wash clothes, hang them dry and wash the cups etc.
7.00a.m: Follow her to "pasar", buy breakfast for everyone
9.00a.m: Help her out in the tuition center
5.00p.m: Go back home to cook dinner

WALAO. So overestimating me! I mean, it looks easy, but her plan actually includes little things like sweeping and mopping the floor, washing dishes, tidying house... All these can add up to make you really really tired!



Now, to the updates on my life

Exams were not too tough, just hoping for the best. I watched Batman!! :D











Okay I seriously wanted to blog. But my blogging mood is suddenly ruined. Wanna know why?










I don't want to tell you :P








Okay la, cause my best friends cant come to my farewell party :(



How sad right?





Sigh.

p.s. sorry for the mood swing. Will come back soon.

Kids

I've met, dealt with and taught a lot of kids for my age. I mean I'm only 19! Can't compare with the teachers of course, but I've been tutoring younger kids in my mum's tuition center for almost 7 years? Yeah, but nah, I actually like teaching them, with the conditions that they are willing to learn and won't try to piss me off!

So there's this Standard 3 kids who parent want to celebrate his birthday in mum's tuition center today. I actually like the parents to do this (celebrating theirs kids birthday at mum"s place) because I love to eat cake! Repeat: I LOVE EATING CAKEEEEE :D So I took care of the preparation and all while waiting for them to finish their tuition work.

The oh-so-famous Angry Bird!

The cake :D :D haha!

Singing the Happy Birthday song

Present from mum :)

Haha ya, mum gave him a book! With Angry Bird sticker on it okay :P

Some kids are really so cute that I can't help but to play and have fun with them. Some are so 伶牙俐齿 you want to tease them and make them speechless. But some are so annoying that you feel like strangling and slapping and snatching off their heads! Kids nowadays *shake head*

And my lil bro is the combination of all! He can be cute and adorable, and the next minute the devil that make u wanna scream at him and make him see the logic. But here's one funny video of him:

Teehee :P enjoy!



xoxo,
ShiYi