Sigh of relief

Persuasive speech is over, calculus 3 test 3 is over, but I don’t even the tiniest bit of happiness. HAIYOR. Can’t possibly feel happy when you screwed up a 20% test right? I mean… Fine, I’ll start with the speech.

Persuasive speech is one of the assignment of COM110: Essentials of Public Speaking and I would say it’s the most important one due to it’s weightage. 15% for the written speech and 15% for oral! How on earth is it not important right.. So I spent around a week preparing it: Doing the questionnaire, typing the speech, memorizing it, preparing the slides… I have some really kind-hearted friend who read through my spe ech and helped me make it better! I value each and every one of their suggestions and so, thank you so much, you know who you are <3 But the bad thing is, I save all my work in my pendrive. Ummm wait, only the slides and video. My speech I have a copy in my computer. So my speech was today. And yesterday, I was in the CAE, trying to show my friend when to help me change my slides. And I just left my pendrive plugged in and went home –.- how smart is that huh. Lucky I realize the night before! Quickly redo everything.

On the day itself, which is today, I was the second one to give my speech. Not really super super nervous, but the nervousness was there and you can feel the heart pounding, you know. So when the first guy finished, I went up there, vomit out everything that I had memorized, missed some parts and get over it. And  when I went back to my seat, my lecturer asked:”Where’s your second visual aid?” But I thought video is the second visual aid! She said video is same as slides, both under multimedia so she penalize me for that. If not I might have gotten full marks. Another wasted Z.Z.Z. So I got 23.5 out of 25. Most of my comments are good, like “good intro”, “you know your speech, good”, “good attitude” and so on.. The only negative one is “2nd visual??” T_T

After lunch, spent around 3 hours preparing for cal 3 test. So stressful right, 2 important things in one day. Sigh. I don’t usually look through the whole test paper before I start tho. I just.. start. Haha. So the 1st question was okay, so was the 2nd and the third (I think) but the 4th 5th and 6th I totally gave up. 20%. I don’t understand! The lecturer cant teach, but the questions he set are so freaking hard! What is the logic behind this?????

Anyway, kind of relieved right now cause this 2 BIG things are over. Can have a good night sleep tonight!

The extraordinary wanna-be

Life usually does not go the way you want it to go. I remember telling one friend about the future I want, during when I’m still willing and able to dream BIG. I want to be the best, I could, and how I wish I would. But it turns out that I’m just an ordinary girl going to an ordinary university and sometimes I can’t help to wonder:” What goes wrong?”

Maybe I’ve lost the passion. Maybe I've stopped believing. Maybe I feel so secure and safe to follow the others that I’ve stopped trying, stop adventuring, stop challenging. When I hear news of friends accomplishing their dreams, I feel ashamed for letting go of mine. I feel like I’m someone who talk big, and do nothing.

Sometimes I really want time to go back. I want to take up the chances I’ve missed, I want to be a better person that I am now. I want to influence people, I want to be someone who is proud of herself. Why can the others achieve what they are after, but I can’t?

Because I stop trying.

And I hope I can really really stop being the ordinary.

I want to be EXTRAORDINARY.

不起眼的幸福

朋友受伤了，问清楚事情的原委后，心疼她连续受的打击，但是也相信，不久后，她会变得更坚强。也告诉她，不管她去到哪里，我可能不是她最好的朋友，也不是她开心难过第一个想到的人，可我还是会听她倾诉，给最真诚的意见。我说我可以做她平凡不起眼的幸福。说的时候才感受到，能给别人安慰和鼓励，我也很幸福！

不知道为什么，听着她的故事，这首歌就立刻浮现在脑海。

很旧的一首歌，但就是联想到了。

希望你很快就能重拾笑脸！:)

Dilemma

Wait. Should be dilemmas.

First of all, I don’t know whether I should sleep or study right now. Like 12 in the morning =.= Not that sleepy, not that awake either, just feel like I haven’t been really studying and productivity is near zero today. But I doubt more info can go into the brain if I study now. BUT  I took a nap just now. A long one. Ahhhhhhhhhhh! ><

Then, seems like Drake had received our mail. It’s a good thing, and I kind of have confirmed going to Drake, but the only thing I’m worry now is $$$ :( What if I don’t get scholarship? I’m not like those rich kids out there, go and study can d :( But as you know Drake is not a very very good uni, and it will be REALLY challenging. And I always slack. Blame who? :(

The only thing I am proud of myself for now is that I have not been watching kdramas for a week now! Self-control maintained :D Luckily, if not more of my time will be wasted. I can tolerate having long naps during study break, but definitely not watching dramas :P Really really tempting, but time to practise self-discipline! Watching dramas only make you more tired, besides wasting your time and not adding anything valuable to your brain (telling myself).

Bf watching movie with friends tmr :’( Imma sad girl trapped here studying. HMPH wait lar, after my finals gonna play gao gao!!!!!!!!!

Me tomorrow XD

Untitled.

ONE MORE WEEK.

Then finals. OMG.

Then one week. Just one week. Then heaven! :D

Okay, should stop imagining but should focus on the tasks on hand. Hmmm just a quick recap of what I’ve done in these few weeks..

1) First time doing a magazine as assignment! I really do not like group assignment, cause you know you’ll always get “those” kind of members, plus I’m always the group leader which is NOT FUN AT ALL. So every one was supposed to produce one historical article plus one addition element like cartoon, advertisement, crossword puzzle etc. Those normal things that appear in a magazine. My part was on President Clinton and I did a Dear Abby Column. There was a bit of confusion cause unfortunately, I have 2 “those” kind of members, and I really have to send like trillion emails and text messages to get them reply me. Anyway, I was not in charge of the cover page at first. But you know what? Even on the deadline itself the girl did not send me the cover. I could not just sit there and wait right? So I did it on my own, spend one hour plus and this is the outcome.

I think it is considered not bad for a person with no art sense like me :P And on Thursday, we did a presentation on our magazine. Our presentation was *no-eyes-see*

2) Watched the Hunger Games! I think this kind of movie produced from novels should be watched before reading the novel itself. Cause if you do it the other way round, you’ll find the movie not so interesting? That is my opinion only tho. That movie was not bad, but could have been better.

3) Participated in a flash mob in Tropicana City Mall! It was definitely a fun and memorable experience :) Still do not have any pictures or videos tho…

4) Being left out by friends :( Like best friends. Can’t tell you how much it hurts, or how shocked I was, but yeah.

5) Doing a lot of Uni things! Flying to the States in August :) Need to but air tickets soon!!

And for now, I should be busy preparing for the final exams on next week. Need to study like really hard! History ohemgee.

Till then.